joanna's home page

Greetings all, thanks for stopping by. My name is joanna. This is all about me and some unusual things that have been happening in my life. I think it's time now that I share them with everyone.

The reasons...

I recently started this site for several reasons. First, to tell my family and friends about a very personal issue that will reveal a totally different side of my being but anyone else who may visit here is welcome too.   Second, just for the fun of putting something like this together. Although I am quickly beginning to realize that this is going to be a lot of work, I really love doing it. I still have a lot of things to add here, so this is by no means complete and I'm thinking it never will be. Ok, it's time to get to reason number one.

The revelation...

I have now reached a point in my life where I find it necessary to reveal a certain part of me that has long been a very well guarded secret. I have kept a special part of my life hidden from my family and friends for many years. Living two lives, one male and one female. I guess I thought I could go on like this forever but now I know it's not going to be possible.

For quite a few years now, I have been spending most of my day dressed as a woman. I only change for work and the few times I venture out for necessities. It is a very comforting feeling to dress this way. It has become so much a part of my life, I can never ever see myself living any other way. I have been living by myself most of my life and I could always dress up any time I wanted, which now just happens to be all the time.

The reconciliation...

I know there are those in my family who will feel hurt because I have waited so long to confide in them about my other life. I sincerely apologize for that. I really should have told everyone sooner, it would have made my life much easier. Hopefully now I can find the right words to explain why I have been doing this.

Unfortunately even in todays more liberal society, for a male to dress in female clothes is something that is still not greeted with open arms.   So it was only natural for me to hide and conceal all of this. I am not ashamed of anything I have been doing but I could never find the right moment to tell all.

I know most of those close to me will have mixed feelings about the life I have been living. Some may be dismayed and find it hard to understand. Each of you may have your own thoughts on this subject and I respect that. So I won't try to convince anyone that I'm doing the right thing.   Just read about me and try to understand that these feminine feelings have been with me all of my life. I just can't turn and walk away from them. It would be a very painful experience and my life would become very miserable. Just accept me as I am and don't expect me to change. I won't ask for any more than that.

The review...

On other pages of this site you will find more information about me that I hope will in some small way explain why I have these feelings. Also I have included a few small recent pictures of me as joanna on several pages. I will include more on the photos page when I have time. My make up skills are getting better and so will the pictures I hope. The musings page contains a mixture of things that are of more than casual interest to me. It will be a place for me to express my opinion on some interesting subjects and it might reveal a little of how I think about life and the world. On the links page you will find a number of sites that explain a lot more about the life that I have been leading. They are all quite tasteful and should not offend anyone. I hope you will visit one or more of them. And of course please don't forget to read a few of my poems.

The request...

PS. Please explore, learn, and understand. And take some time to put a note in my Guestbook. Thank you.